It’s 2025. First and foremost, a Happy New Year! Second, I haven’t written in far too long. I guess life has just been busy. Yes, it is an excuse, so please, excuse me for that! To start the New Year right, I am going to share all about loss and all about gaining. When things end, or when things don’t go your way, or you hit rock bottom, the world will feel so heavy on your shoulders. But, at some point, by some force, the weight will slowly come off and you’ll be strong enough again to tackle the challenges that you’ll be facing because let’s be real… we will always have challenges in life.

In my life, the past two years, I was in a relationship and I thought I was happy but subconsciously I was always stressed and feeling like there was something wrong. Due to this, I couldn’t sleep well, I couldn’t eat right, I was drowning in my own subconscious sorrow. It was a very hot and cold relationship. However, I just wanted it to desperately work so I did everything in my power to hold on to it and make him stay. After two years of ups and downs, of me stressing, of him having one foot in the door and one foot out, all of a sudden it was over. Absolutely crushed, destroyed… I didn’t know what to do. But I accepted the break up.

I was fine the first week. I even met someone new at the time. But then after a few weeks I fell apart like paper does when it gets shredded, I was in very small pieces. I wasn’t sure if I would come back together. Keep in mind, I had five classes, internship, and work to focus on while I was feeling like I was the biggest mess on earth. I had lost hope, I wanted to love deeply, I wanted him back. And after a few more weeks, the feelings settled and I started to accept this loss.

It truly was a loss. I was grieving. The next guy ended things because I was looking for my last relationship and we were weren’t compatible. Went on a handful of dates but nothing was for me. Then, I reached out to someone… and he reciprocated. We met, and the rest is history. When I first met him, I couldn’t help but get lost in his eyes. He blew me away by the way he is. We hugged good-bye and I knew then and there, here is someone I want to be with. And here I am, in the New Year, with a new relationship, with someone I am truly in love with.

One door closed, and seven opened right after. Even though I had lost all hope and I thought I’d never find someone for me, after waiting for a few months BAM he showed up in my life making me happier than I ever was. I have never loved like this before. When I entered through his door, everything came together. I had another purpose. I had some more meaning. I felt this feeling in my heart that was full of love.

When doors close, trust me, other previously locked doors will open. You just have to go through each one to find which door is the one that you need in your life. There is a trial and error but I think the universe conspires to help you choose the right door at some point if you are a good human being and you’ve been through some terrible times to get you on the path you’re meant to be on. Whether that be career, academics, family, friends, hobbies, or love and relationships. You WILL be happy. A door WILL OPEN for you. Trust in that. Don’t let go of hope. I thought my life was all over for love. I thought I wouldn’t love again or be loved. And here I am, with all that I’ve ever wanted and more.

Until next time, and don’t forget to open some doors this year. Find the one for you.